burner

after a great week spent living frivolously in denver, i returned to the islands only to be overcome by an intense cold. as i boarded my plane from DIA to SFO, every swallow was dry and irritating. as i boarded from SFO to HNL, every swallow was accompanied with excruciating pain. upon arrival at the estate, my sinuses were completely congested. the next morning, i woke up with my fluid-filled sinuses causing my face and eyes to be completely puffy. i spent this entire week battling the illness with rest, hot tea, orange juice, and a more careful diet. did it work? i still have a slight cough, and i still wake up with my nose plugged up, but i'm better off than last friday.

i spent my evening at the driving range, by myself. i'm actually able to hit my drivers to over 200 yards at a greater frequency than i used to. it's not completely consistent yet, but it's a start. figuring out a golf swing is a life goal. in the time that i've stopped working for my old company, and halted escrima classes, golf has become the one activity that i'm serious about. it's a great hobby, albeit rather expensive. but the joy that comes with blasting a little plastic ball over 150 yards is a victory all on its own.

there are about 9 or 10 weeks left before i leave for the philippines to embark on my medical journey. as i mentioned to puraw wave, i've developed a sort of "messiah complex" over the past few months. it seems that my motivation to attend med school goes beyond my desire to reach a higher quality of life. i realized that as this world is getting more chaotic and more desperate, the more people are going to need healers. part of me wants to be the one to save them. maybe i should front a rock band and get some kind of rail transit system named after me...

"There is a man wandering this chaotic world. The people are already calling him 'savior'." - Villager, Hokuto no Ken Raoh Gaiden Ten no Haoh

bow tie

the little things are falling into place. i will be heading up to manila in march to square away some paperwork regarding my citizenship, check up on the new living quarters, and possibly enroll for the first year of med school. the formalities are just that - formalities. soon, the path will open up and the speculation of times past will become a reality. am i ready for it? i feel like i'm not quite there yet. however, when the time comes, i will be more than ready.

lately, i have been plagued with disturbing dreams. a lot of them happening just before i wake up in the morning. i don't know if they are a consequence of the things weighing on my mind from the past few weeks. i don't know if they really mean anything. it's just kind of annoying to have a vivid dream that doesn't involve anything sexy or badass.

i learned how to tie a bowtie. it's not as hard as it seems, and now i want to own one. i might have to buy one when i get to colorado in a week or so. the only store that i know that sells them here doesn't have any for less than $70. that is much too steep for something i would really only wear an average of five times a year. but when i do get one, believe you me, i will be rocking the shit out of them.

boto maki and puraw wave, look forward to some videos and real talk when i get up there. let's have us some delicious blue moon as well. see you in a few.