unanimous decision

traveled from kapolei to koko marina yesterday to watch what was expected to be a few exciting match ups on ufc 87. although the victors of the matches were the ones i expected, the victories themselves were not at all what i would have wanted. in about 5 or 6 matches, there was only one ko, and all the matches i wanted to go to ko or submission ended in a decision. i think everyone was trying for a first round win but ended up losing steam and taking it to the third (or 5th round in the title case). disappointing.

my diet recently has been disrupted. although there have been prolonged bouts of running, my eating habits have been severely compromised. what once was fresh greens with protein and water has degenerated into deep fried, panko-encrusted pools of oil with mac salad side dishes. the white rice is also present and it is killing me. not to mention all the fucked up desserts and carbohydrate loaded packages lying around the house. disgusting.

my body craves rest, but my mind is too wide awake and stubborn to lie in bed all day. unfortunate. i want this heat to go away soon and i'm longing for the shorter days and less frequent sun of winter. "winter" is no longer the winter i know and have come to love. i will severely miss 40 degree weather and seeing my breath escape in warm puffs of white smoke. i will also severely miss having that feeling of my face being frozen and losing all sensation in my ears and nose. although i won't miss having to clean the snow off my car, i will miss the general wintery atmosphere. damn tropical climate.

i think from now on, when i go on vacation, i want to go somewhere cold. i wouldn't mind returning to lakewood and spending a week or two in 40 degrees. looking at the snow fall gently and blanketing the blacktop and coniferous trees would be a real treat. also, with the cold weather comes the fact that most people (especially the douchey, annoying ones) wouldn't dare step outside, leaving the streets cold and silent - perfect for taking night time walks. delightful.

i still haven't gone to the beach. i don't really know if i care enough to really make the effort to go. maybe when more of my friends manifest an interest to go with me then we'll see. also, my uncle and his family haven't gone in a while, but due to the timing and conflicts of our schedules i haven't been able to go with them. looks like my farmer's tan won't go away for a while.

"You should see the choreography in this video...it's so gay that it's good..." - Fudge

currently: suffering from being indoors waiting for the heat outdoors to subside

dreamreader

my journey to settle certain matters is nearly at an end. all that's left is to ship my "room" more or less, have a fancy suit dinner with best hit generation, and decide what to wear on the plane ride home (i was thinking something along the lines of the white shirt and black trouser combo that chiaki wore, especially considering that minus the blazer and tie, it will be what i wore the night previous).

according to mother, a package in my name has arrived. this is good news, since it heralds the arrival of some new bible study material. also, another package was shipped on friday, so i will be expecting it sometime this week as well. god bless yesasia.

what has been occupying my time here when i wasn't packing or preparing my move? honestly - all you can eat buffets involving crab legs, caesar salads, beef ribs, and ice cream; perusing the internet; and gambling (penny slots). unforgivable. i should have been running, but i guess we'll have time for that upon my return.

recently, i dreamt of tanaka reina and george harrison. not in the same dream. the one with reina was beautiful in a k-drama sense. the one with george was sad and beautiful - i was attending a concert given by all his friends (eric clapton, other remaining beatles, etc) before he died. i cried in my dream and i almost awoke with tears in my eyes - mostly because there was an inexplicable, immobilizing pain in my left ankle.

it's not finished yet. although some bullets have been fired, there are still many rounds to unload. i am three years away from one shot in particular, but that's just the beginning. what will give me the strength to persevere? it's the hope that the future holds so much more for me yet.

"The paths we've chosen aren't so different, you know..." - Kuwabara Kazuma, Yuu Yuu Hakusho