get back (to where you once belonged)

flight to denver leaves tonight. after an unfortunate stop over in SFO (i'm over that airport, but it's better than LAX), i will officially be in the state i called home for 5 years. i wouldn't put it past fate for me to call it home again in a few years. but before all that, i will be in a variety of climates before i can settle down again.

two nights of stuffing myself silly and possibly gambling away a few dollars with the crew. two nights of enjoying lovely 40 degree weather. two nights of finally having a use for my jackets and sweaters. two nights of eating food that, in amount seems like a lot, but in actual caloric comparison to HI food, is much healthier. videos to share. stories to tell. good times all around. i feel like having a blue moon with the boys. how about either boto maki or puraw wave buy a 12 pack of the belgian white ale and bring it over, for which i will compensate upon your arrival...

upon my return from denver, i will be in HI for 5 days, then off to manila to deliver my application. with the nmat score pending and all my paperwork squared away, i have only to entrust my fate to the powers that be and pray that my accomplishments thus far have not been in vain. i believe this path is right. i believe this path is the one that must be taken. to escape the misery and mediocrity in which i am sinking, i must reach for this opportunity with both my hands and grasp success.

november has been, is, and will be the busiest month of this year. december will be slightly more lax than that. x-mas party with the (hopefully soon-to-be former) coworkers, x-mas party with the escrima classmates, and my doctor aunty from PI will be paying us a visit just in time for x-mas. it's a good amount of rest, because i'm sure next year will be more than hectic. as busy and overwhelming next year will be, i am eager and ready for it.

"Don't give up! We've made it this far by holding out til the last second and snatching victory from the jaws of defeat! This is how we've done it and we'll do it as many times as it takes!" - Simon, TTGL

pierce the heavens

the nmat is on saturday. i leave for LA early tomorrow morning. after reading forums and blogs of other med-school hopefuls who have already taken the exam, and as zero hour closes in, i'm starting to feel a little nervous. i am however, completely confident in my ability to do well. where does this belief come from? part of it is gut feeling - i've never felt more confident for a standardized test my entire life. even the SAT's had me feeling completely inadequate in my preparations. this time, however, i feel that i am ready. the other part comes from the stats - i've been reviewing for 4-5 months now. almost every week in that span of time was spent poring over the practice exams and review books. my entire undergraduate career was jammed into my brain since may 2009.

the feeling is growing. the feeling that it is possible. everyday, the feeling that i can succeed in this outrageous venture is growing stronger and stronger. i am beginning to believe that it is indeed possible. i am beginning to believe in me who believes in myself.

busy month - pupunta ako sa LA sa Sabado. susunod, pupunta kami sa Denver. pagkatapos, pupunta kami sa Maynila. also, dadating ang kaibigan ko sa dito sa Miercoles. hopefully, good times all around...

hope to see my brosephs up in D-town next week. blackhawk if possible. hopefully, you can make it, since i probably won't have a chance to come back to denver for a little while, depending on the situation.

wish me luck. it's through everyone's support that i have made it this far. i will do my best to honor it, by succeeding...

"Even if the universe is against us, our burning blood will cut through fate!" - Viral, TTGL