not enough spiral power

i have been suffering from a great illness since saturday. saturday night culminated in a fever of 102, pain in my kidneys, and a throbbing headache that made even my eyes hurt. sunday night saw the break in the fever but a seamless transition into flu symptoms - aching head (still), cramped chest, coughing (which makes the headache a lot worse), congestion, phlegm, etc. monday and tuesday passed with me regaining the ability to stand and walk albeit uncomfortably. my loss of appetite over the past four days has allowed me to see my abs. i look fantastic, but i feel terrible. however, no matter the power of my hunger, my tastebuds won't allow just anything to get in.

i have missed two days of work. a bill came in while i was bedridden. my room looks like manila. i still haven't packed for my trip to manila next friday. i haven't shaved in at least a week and a half. stuff keeps piling up for me to do. i want to lie down some more, but i don't know if i should.

over the weekend, during my illness-induced delirium, i dreamed of many things. one of them involving myself trying to stop my grandfather and his best friend from participating in a drag race against coolio and one of his gangsta buddies on the hill in my old neighborhood in makakilo. coolio was driving a black monster truck and my grandfather's vehicle was an old roadster similar to scrooge mcduck's old car. i remember finally giving in and starting an inspirational, "don't you give up" speech to my grandfather when coolio interrupted, resulting in me yelling to him at the top of my voice, "FUCK...YOU! HOLD...THE FUCK...ON!" the dream ended with an old grainy, citizen kane like shot of a giant political poster showing muhammad ali's face and his voice saying something like, "you either live the dream then die, or you don't live the dream and die with regret" or something along those lines.

i am still not anywhere near 100%. my body still aches. my appetite has still not returned. i am still coughing every once in a while. i need to get better soon, so i can eat my fill of turkey and stuffing tomorrow.

"I need to see more fights. That's what's missing from my life. Seeing more fights would complete me..." - me

currently: trying to rationalize the next step to finishing my tasks for the half day of work i have