glass onion

still recovering from last week's agony. i've noticed as i've gone through the motions of everyday life (or at least tried to), everything seems completely unreal when you're tinged with sickness. aside from everything appearing blurry, everything also seems slowed down and quieter than normal. it's happened at least three times or so - when i went out driving, when i looked out the window, and when i went back to work. i look around me and everything seems unreal. maybe it's like watanabe said, "i haven't quite adapted to the world yet"...

a few days more and i will be leaving for filipinas. i haven't even packed a pair of undies yet, much less my camera (it's not even charged), toiletries, or even a knife. i leave on friday, but as i'm still trapped by the whole "everything seems unreal" ideal, i don't quite have the motivation to get anything started.

today was a productive day of work though. also, after work was finished, i managed to pay off two bills and now have nothing to worry about for the rest of the month. i am already registered and received a confirmation packet for some training classes at red rocks at the end of next month. i'll be in denver from the 26th to the 29th for classes (i assume i arrive a little before that and leave a little after). so, comrades in the mile high, i will see you again soon.

this christmas season is plagued with nothing to buy. nothing's worth spending money on and that's the problem. christmas hasn't been a real holiday in a long time now and it's been replaced with the commercialism and consumer economics ages ago. however, when even that falls apart, what's left? whatever, if anything, there are new photobooks and alo-hello dvds coming out this month.

"That's the song that did it..." - me, reflecting upon shanimuni paradise

currently: thinking about going to bed early