wonderwall

it's been a long time since my last post. but then again, i figure not too many people read this anyway, so no big deal.

how is my project coming along? well, it seems, for now. it looks as though the universe is conspiring to help me out, and all it asks in return is that i give it 100%. i took a solemn oath that if things turn out for the positive in this little venture, i swear to fight with all my powers at the ready and succeed (no matter how hard the path becomes). bruce lee once said, "there is no amount of punishment too great, no amount of effort, no condition too tough to take in order to win..." i agree wholeheartedly.

on a different note, my no. 3 member of all time is fat. that person used to be number 2 of the current, but began to slip. now, it depresses me to see that person every time they show up on screen. how sad. how do i deal with this? watch other things and tell myself to go running. also, i need to leave hawaii, because in a few years, that person may very well end up grocery shopping at a safeway or foodland near me. i just couldn't bear that.

i have been hanging out recently with an old friend who disappeared after his significant other gave birth to his child. actually, as a couple, they were under the radar for months before that. why am i hanging out with them suddenly? because they are neighbors and another friend of mine goes over to WoW at their place. i know, i know. it's horrible. i hate WoW with every fiber of my being, but i figure, we should rock band and street fight now before everyone leaves for their own paths (the desert, foreign countries, an empty house).

"Don't ask for guarantees. And don't look to be saved in any one thing, person, machine, or library. Do your own bit of saving, and if you drown, at least die knowing you were headed for shore." - Faber, Fahrenheit 451

currently: awaiting a nap and escrima class

true savior

once again, as i mentioned last year and early this year - things will move in the summer. summer seems to be the time when new opportunities arise. can we take advantage of them? i should hope so. will it be a long and difficult path? absolutely. how do we even know that we're getting anywhere? we don't. all we can do is keep moving forward and trying hard every day.

speaking with a brother of mine, we agreed that if we're going to have to face the end of the world in 2012, it shouldn't be on HI. if we're going to end up failing due to some horrible, natural disaster, then i want it to be known that at least i died trying. i want it to be known that at least i didn't die scraping and wasting away in mediocrity.

i'm going to test myself on a higher stage. so far, the trials have already begun - i am as far as can be in terms of mentors and supporters. however, that is merely a small roadblock. i know that i can do so much more than just this, so i have to keep moving forward. i have to keep trying.

the vacation is still on, though. business before pleasure, but when it's time for pleasure, it's time for pleasure. we have about 2 and a half months until we depart for the motherland. i'm excited, but i'm sure i'm not the only one.

"There are those who have risen from the tomb and have become so great and amassed such a fortune that they have overthrown their would-be conquerors..." - Albert de Morcerf, Le Comte du Monte Cristo

currently: sipping cold green tea and awaiting a nap