the major hurdles have been overcome. i have been tested, examined, and questioned to the limit of my capabilities. i have exhausted as much effort as i could muster and i have put in as much spiral power as i have in all my molecules of DNA. the next step is the waiting game. if fortune smiles upon this endeavour, then i will be leaving this place yet again to pursue the greater dream, reach the greater goal.
there have been many who have supported me in this fight, and many who still do and will continue to do so. for that, i am beyond grateful. your wishes and belief in me will not be in vain. i vow to do honor to your hope in me and i will become what you have always known and that i am starting to know that i could be.
this journey required and will continue to require 100% of my mental, physical, and spiritual capabilities. if i am blessed and granted this first step, it will be only the first of many that must be taken. i feel that i am ready, since i have already come so far. there's no turning back now, only to look ahead. maybe, if i can succeed, i will be invited to the place where all manly souls reside...
"Stop wasting time here! The truth that you've decided for yourself is the only truth in this universe!" - Kamina, TTGL
11.30.2009
11.17.2009
the next step
three more days until i leave for manila for a week. in that one week, there will be much to do. i will have to meet with officials from the college and turn in my application, sign some documents, possibly do some interviews, and speak with my relatives. after that, with my nmat score pending, all i can do is wait and pray that the fates will conspire with me to get me to that next level. if all goes well, i will most likely be leaving the US sometime in april.
i am thoroughly excited for this trip. i know that i am going for a greater purpose. i am going in the hope that i can grasp the opportunity and become something much greater than this. i am going to possibly escape the sea of mediocrity and misery into which i am currently sinking. for the two plus years since i graduated from college, i have been slowly and steadily drowning - although there have been bright points, certain decisions have kept me kicking and struggling. however, if we kick and scream and fight like hell, we might move forward, just a little bit...
i feel that i can overcome this. i feel that i can rise up above the detractors and the haters and everyone who doesn't believe in me. i am starting to feel that even if the amount of people who don't believe in me outweigh those who do, my burning blood will cut through fate. for the dreams of those who came before me and the hopes of those who will come after, i must succeed...
"I got belted and was told to believe in the me that believes in myself. I think that's how it should be..." - Simon, TTGL
i am thoroughly excited for this trip. i know that i am going for a greater purpose. i am going in the hope that i can grasp the opportunity and become something much greater than this. i am going to possibly escape the sea of mediocrity and misery into which i am currently sinking. for the two plus years since i graduated from college, i have been slowly and steadily drowning - although there have been bright points, certain decisions have kept me kicking and struggling. however, if we kick and scream and fight like hell, we might move forward, just a little bit...
i feel that i can overcome this. i feel that i can rise up above the detractors and the haters and everyone who doesn't believe in me. i am starting to feel that even if the amount of people who don't believe in me outweigh those who do, my burning blood will cut through fate. for the dreams of those who came before me and the hopes of those who will come after, i must succeed...
"I got belted and was told to believe in the me that believes in myself. I think that's how it should be..." - Simon, TTGL
11.11.2009
get back (to where you once belonged)
flight to denver leaves tonight. after an unfortunate stop over in SFO (i'm over that airport, but it's better than LAX), i will officially be in the state i called home for 5 years. i wouldn't put it past fate for me to call it home again in a few years. but before all that, i will be in a variety of climates before i can settle down again.
two nights of stuffing myself silly and possibly gambling away a few dollars with the crew. two nights of enjoying lovely 40 degree weather. two nights of finally having a use for my jackets and sweaters. two nights of eating food that, in amount seems like a lot, but in actual caloric comparison to HI food, is much healthier. videos to share. stories to tell. good times all around. i feel like having a blue moon with the boys. how about either boto maki or puraw wave buy a 12 pack of the belgian white ale and bring it over, for which i will compensate upon your arrival...
upon my return from denver, i will be in HI for 5 days, then off to manila to deliver my application. with the nmat score pending and all my paperwork squared away, i have only to entrust my fate to the powers that be and pray that my accomplishments thus far have not been in vain. i believe this path is right. i believe this path is the one that must be taken. to escape the misery and mediocrity in which i am sinking, i must reach for this opportunity with both my hands and grasp success.
november has been, is, and will be the busiest month of this year. december will be slightly more lax than that. x-mas party with the (hopefully soon-to-be former) coworkers, x-mas party with the escrima classmates, and my doctor aunty from PI will be paying us a visit just in time for x-mas. it's a good amount of rest, because i'm sure next year will be more than hectic. as busy and overwhelming next year will be, i am eager and ready for it.
"Don't give up! We've made it this far by holding out til the last second and snatching victory from the jaws of defeat! This is how we've done it and we'll do it as many times as it takes!" - Simon, TTGL
two nights of stuffing myself silly and possibly gambling away a few dollars with the crew. two nights of enjoying lovely 40 degree weather. two nights of finally having a use for my jackets and sweaters. two nights of eating food that, in amount seems like a lot, but in actual caloric comparison to HI food, is much healthier. videos to share. stories to tell. good times all around. i feel like having a blue moon with the boys. how about either boto maki or puraw wave buy a 12 pack of the belgian white ale and bring it over, for which i will compensate upon your arrival...
upon my return from denver, i will be in HI for 5 days, then off to manila to deliver my application. with the nmat score pending and all my paperwork squared away, i have only to entrust my fate to the powers that be and pray that my accomplishments thus far have not been in vain. i believe this path is right. i believe this path is the one that must be taken. to escape the misery and mediocrity in which i am sinking, i must reach for this opportunity with both my hands and grasp success.
november has been, is, and will be the busiest month of this year. december will be slightly more lax than that. x-mas party with the (hopefully soon-to-be former) coworkers, x-mas party with the escrima classmates, and my doctor aunty from PI will be paying us a visit just in time for x-mas. it's a good amount of rest, because i'm sure next year will be more than hectic. as busy and overwhelming next year will be, i am eager and ready for it.
"Don't give up! We've made it this far by holding out til the last second and snatching victory from the jaws of defeat! This is how we've done it and we'll do it as many times as it takes!" - Simon, TTGL
11.05.2009
pierce the heavens
the nmat is on saturday. i leave for LA early tomorrow morning. after reading forums and blogs of other med-school hopefuls who have already taken the exam, and as zero hour closes in, i'm starting to feel a little nervous. i am however, completely confident in my ability to do well. where does this belief come from? part of it is gut feeling - i've never felt more confident for a standardized test my entire life. even the SAT's had me feeling completely inadequate in my preparations. this time, however, i feel that i am ready. the other part comes from the stats - i've been reviewing for 4-5 months now. almost every week in that span of time was spent poring over the practice exams and review books. my entire undergraduate career was jammed into my brain since may 2009.
the feeling is growing. the feeling that it is possible. everyday, the feeling that i can succeed in this outrageous venture is growing stronger and stronger. i am beginning to believe that it is indeed possible. i am beginning to believe in me who believes in myself.
busy month - pupunta ako sa LA sa Sabado. susunod, pupunta kami sa Denver. pagkatapos, pupunta kami sa Maynila. also, dadating ang kaibigan ko sa dito sa Miercoles. hopefully, good times all around...
hope to see my brosephs up in D-town next week. blackhawk if possible. hopefully, you can make it, since i probably won't have a chance to come back to denver for a little while, depending on the situation.
wish me luck. it's through everyone's support that i have made it this far. i will do my best to honor it, by succeeding...
"Even if the universe is against us, our burning blood will cut through fate!" - Viral, TTGL
the feeling is growing. the feeling that it is possible. everyday, the feeling that i can succeed in this outrageous venture is growing stronger and stronger. i am beginning to believe that it is indeed possible. i am beginning to believe in me who believes in myself.
busy month - pupunta ako sa LA sa Sabado. susunod, pupunta kami sa Denver. pagkatapos, pupunta kami sa Maynila. also, dadating ang kaibigan ko sa dito sa Miercoles. hopefully, good times all around...
hope to see my brosephs up in D-town next week. blackhawk if possible. hopefully, you can make it, since i probably won't have a chance to come back to denver for a little while, depending on the situation.
wish me luck. it's through everyone's support that i have made it this far. i will do my best to honor it, by succeeding...
"Even if the universe is against us, our burning blood will cut through fate!" - Viral, TTGL
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