i haven't felt this overwhelmed since the final months of last school year. it is the first time in a long time since i have felt literally crushed and bogged down by the shear weight of information being placed on us. but this ox will not break under such a yoke. i have risen before to meet the challenge and this time will be no different.
being here in the pearl of the orient is still surreal at times. when my partner and i look upon the musings of our various acquaintances in social networks, we always feel a sense of distance, of isolation. we are far removed from the comings and goings of the world we used to occupy, yet at times it feels like they aren't so far away. currently, my mother (the first other, for all you psychoanalysts and psychologists) is suffering due to physical ailments of which i am still learning about. she will be okay, however i can't help but feel guilty for not being able to be there.
my comrades from the mile high are meeting with my father to return an artifact upon which we dined and conversed over many a time. many things were shared (laughs, serious conversations, philosphies) over that table, and now it is being handed over to be used by strangers. they will be granting us another source of income, hopefully, yet it saddens me to know that that table will not hear the voices of my friends and i for quite some time. yet, i promise that one of these days, i will have a newer and better artifact over which we will gather and laugh again.
it's hard, but i know that i can make it. i can make it this far and go even farther, because you're with me. for that, i am eternally grateful - to you and to the one who sent you to me.
"You fill in the blanks with life experiences..." - Yoko, TTGL
