the upcoming battle which i am going to spend all summer preparing for is with a foe unlike any i have ever faced before. it stands as the single most definitive battle for the title of healer as of yet. many have battled it and many have survived, however it's not just whether or not you win...it's also how well you win; how thoroughly you can do it. just scraping by and barely surviving is not enough. i need to defeat this beast in such a way as can be compared to turning over a tank...with your bare hands. i need to deflect a meteor; take a bull's tackle head on and karate chop one of its horns off; spread my AT field and catch a falling angel made of highly explosive material; take my spiral power to the next limit and turn a 0.00001% probability of winning into 100% chance of victory. that is the weight and gravity of the situation. but the thing is, it's not as impossible as it seems.
the key to this victory is preparation. endless, unbreakable, relentless preparation. it is attaining mastery over my former enemies and using them as my allies against an even greater foe. it is catching every arrow that has tried to hit me and turning them all back against my enemy. it is eating the dragon of darkness flame and using it as a nutritive to enhance my abilities. to those of you who caught all my terrible anime references, kudos. you are indeed a nerd.
i can overcome, i can succeed, i can move forward. there's no choice but to go on. there's no other direction but up.
