shin kyuseishu

tuesday night brought with it the physical confirmation of my victory. after waiting and praying, i can finally say that i have made it. the path has opened up and the road to becoming a true savior has revealed itself. i can now gladly cast off the shackles of the builder in order to put on the mantle of the healer. for those that understand rpg lingo, this transition is akin to me leaving the shopkeeper/items seller position and joining the party as the healer/mage. what a welcome change indeed.

how did i celebrate this happy turn of events? by having mcdonald's on wednesday and falling ill on thursday. i spent all of thursday bedridden, with nausea and a headache. it seemed to be a 24 hour bug, similar to a few sick spells i had in denver a few years back. i would be dizzy, nauseous, and succumbing to a general malaise which would eventually peter out by the next day. so, here i am on friday, at the office, relishing my last day of employment with my father's company.

according to the book of face, there are at least two known comrades from the dreaded battle with the NMAT that i know for sure are joining me in the same med school. with all of us being fil-ams, we will without a doubt be in the same classes together for the next three years. i mentioned before that i didn't give a damn whether or not i would be the only one attending that school, as long as i got in. i still feel that way, but it's nice to not be completely alone.

things are shaping up for my eventual departure. i'm leaving one place to go to an even hotter destination. this trend has not been in my favor. i left the frigid paradise of denver to come to hawaii. now, i'm leaving hawaii for an even more tropical area that doesn't even have the benefit of tradewinds to keep me cool. although, the trend of my occupations has been rising according to my tastes. my jobs have gotten better and better, each with higher payout and each with more resposibilities. now, i'm going to pursue the ancient art and become the kind of man that i must become.

before i leave for the PI, i would love to come to denver one more time and check in with my family and friends. however, that would mean i need to pay for my own ticket, and without a job, i need that money to keep me alive and fed for the next few months. but, we'll see how it turns out. ideally, i would be in denver sometime in the month of february, but as i said, it's up in the air.

"It's unreal how we're all growing up. One of us is a CPA, another's going to be an architect, I'm going to be an OT, you're going to be a doctor...It's like we're getting 'big people' jobs" - FJ-aniki

"It's like just yesterday you were running around the jobsite, sleeping on the sandbags, and barfing after breakfast. Now, you're going to be a doctor..." - Gilbert-aniki

update

just an update. for any of my friends reading this blog of mine, i have also crafted a more professional blog related to my career aspirations. feel free to follow that as well, since it will be an update on all the happenings in PI. otherwise, come here too, since this is my more informal and personal blog.

urbiryan.wordpress.com

return of the mack

my comrades have returned from japan. although i am disappointed that i wasn't able to join them this time, they were able to bring me back some awesome schwag - a sega saturn t-shirt, a blue shirt with the dai-gurren dan logo emblazoned in white, a black shirt with gachapin and muku decked out in shogun warrior gear, a gray gachapin hoodie, a street fighter 4 arcade stick keychain that makes the sounds of special moves after you enter them correctly (hadoken!), a plastic keychain designed to resemble simon's core drill, eyedrops that sting like hell but leave your eyes feeling like they just chewed gum, wasabi flavored kit-kat (better than i expected), and some mochi. all in all, a pretty good package.

work this week was hell, considering it was the first week back from break. it was ridiculous to alter my sleep patterns again and it left me able to only sleep for 6 hours a night. i am still awaiting the confirmation of my victory. but aside from that, other news from philippines has arrived that spells good fortune for the coming years.

a generous benefactor of mine, to whom i now owe absolute allegiance and loyalty, has informed me that i am able to apply for dual citizenship in the PI. previously, i was told that due to circumstances surrounding my birth, i would not be able to achieve dual citizenship. but somehow, thanks to my benefactor's connections and persuasive abilities, i will be sent the application sometime soon, which i will fill out and send in with great relish. what does dual citizenship mean for me? i will be able to dodge some of the foreign fees associated with going to school up there, i will be able to own property in the PI, and there will be no time limit to my stays in PI (i won't need to renew visas, come back for a few months, etc). so, effectively, if this is goes as planned, i will be able to stay in PI forever if i were so inclined (or at least longer than most visitors are allowed).

so, as i said before, i owe my benefactor complete allegiance. if that person were to ask me to sacrifice a good portion of my adult life by serving as a doctor in PI, i would not decline. if that person were to ask me to work for them in their clinic for a period of time before returning to america, i would do so gladly. i owe this person much more than they know, so my gratitude is theirs forever. i will continue to drill a path to the future.

"There was someone among us who was much, much bigger than this. For that person's sake, we will continue to move forward..." - Yoko, TTGL

"The path of man and beast intertwine to form the path of the spiral! Piercing destiny as yesterday's enemies, we will create a future with these hands!" - Simon & Viral, TTGL

adapted

the new year has begun and i am celebrating it by returning to the indentured servitude of work (at the construction company). every day, i feel miserable being here. it doesn't matter if i am getting paid better than my previous jobs - the environment, the tasks, everything about this job depresses me. never thought i'd have a job that was so bad, even paychecks wouldn't be enough to save it. however, that's just motivation to reach up for the heights and surpass this obstacle.

i am awaiting the sign that will set me free. i am awaiting the physical confirmation of my victory. once i receive it, i can kiss this wretched place goodbye. not that i wish ill things to befall this company - no, far from it. in fact, i want this place to succeed beyond anyone's wildest dreams. it's just that, i don't want to be a part of it. i don't want to have anything to do with this place, when i'm out. hopefully, that will be soon.

everyone's circumstances seem to be changing. for many people, this is a year of new beginnings. it shouldn't be any different for me, either. but, after spending a week in reflection, i feel that i miss so many things. i long for so many things that i cannot have just yet. but one day soon, i will return to the winters of my content and live life according to my wishes. until then, i have to trudge through the hardships and heat and make myself something greater than this.

"I haven't quite adapted to the real world yet." - Watanabe Toru, "Norwegian Wood"